Recently I was helping someone practice a sales call for coaching. The benefit I received was getting an insight while helping her.
Knowing that she was a health coach, I talked about how I have a gym membership, but have rarely used they gym in the last year.
I am very committed to not being committed. 
See I understand that it is not about how I am feeling that will get me to go work out. I already know that I never feel like going! Am I committed? The truth is I am not.
She dug deeper to understand why I am not committed. What came up for me is that while I am finally in the best mental state I have ever been in my life, I am really comfortable not having to do the work to get into shape.
I have this belief that it is going to take me a bit to start seeing the benefits of going and I am not willing to leave my own comfort zone to get on the other side of that.
See I have spent a majority of my life on an uphill battle doing the hard work. By finally not having to navigate my grief so often I have gotten comfortable. I do not want to leave this comfy place I have created for myself.
When I realized that THIS is what was going on in my own brain, I was annoyed to hear it. Actually, I said, ‘that’s gross.’ However, listening to my own advice, this is where I get to be empowered again.
I now have the awareness of what has been holding me back. I get to now choose from a conscious thought rather than via my subconscious thoughts.
Do I want to have integrity with my word, or do I want to keep not showing up for myself when it comes to my physical health?
Where are you committed to not being committed?
| Much love, Trudi |